it's been a long time, I know that. there's a lot of things that had been going on in my life, and because of that, I've found myself going deeper and deeper into worse situations, unable to find my way out. I originally thought that I could do this alone - that I could continue living just as I am, that I would be able to get rid of this oppressive, depressing, anxiousness inside of me. But I can't. I really can't do it anymore.
I'm going to be in rehab for about three months, starting soon. I'm sorry for - for everything, I don't even know, but I need to do this. I need to learn how to be myself again before I lose it.
I love you all, the people whom I've made friends with and the people who have helped me throughout the years. I love you all. Honestly, I've been so tired and unmotivated, which is why I've been gone for so long. It's literally not you, it's me.
But I do love you all. All your friendship has given me strength, but it's about time I learned how to stand on my feet again.
Thank you. You won't hear for me until the end of September at the latest, but I'll try to update once in a while. I just - I need this. Thanks for understanding.
- summer l.